Transient Ascension: an end goal never to be achieved, an endless circle of trying to rise.
Remove gravity, and all that is left is chaos. Where M.C. Escher’s Relativity has four distinct gravities or four governing end goals, Transient Ascension claims no gravity. This piece is perhaps the question and answer behind my previous work, Beacon. The artwork questions all aspects of who I am as a person and wonders how various parts of life intersect while challenging the decisions I have made.
I can call myself many things: artist, sister, daughter, auntie, friend, family, employee, and many more. Wondering how it all comes together to equal self. For years, I fought against creating a “self-portrait,” not realizing or understanding that all of my work is an extension of myself. I have been asking my art to answer many personal questions for a long time and maybe even asking it to give me a reason. The response intensifies as my practice leads to even more answerless questions, testing my ability to continue.
Life keeps moving and changing; this is true of the people who come in and out of your life, the family you have, and the demons you continually face as you keep moving forward. It is the regrets you harbor, the doubts carried. The self-worth, value, and hopelessness you struggle with and question at every turn. It is the truth hidden and sought by those you trust and ask to share your worries and burdens. It is the friends you thought would always be there and those you know that will never expect more of you than you can give. These are the questions we all continue to ask ourselves and will never have the same answer for. The lessons learned. It is walking onto a mental battlefield every day and never surrendering but finding places of rest. Transient Ascension claims no gravity. There is no start point and no destination, just the journey.
